Jade Vine

There’s just something about you

I smell it on your skin
Feel it in your glare
Hear it in your laugh
The way you hold your head
Yea
I know about men like you

I was all he ever dreamed of
However
He never believed in dreams
So he trotted along a path in his realm of realism
And picked his daisy
or sunflower
or dandelion
And he took her home
And he smiled

He dreamed of jade vine
Thoughts of teal
Yearnings of green
Far off in a different air
Maybe he could perfume his home with her
Hang her generously 
Draped across his walls

Awoken to a single daisy
or sunflower
or dandelion

Soon gold becomes 
A sickening yellow

And so he closed his eyes to dream more
To touch turquoise limbs
To lay in me 

And one day
While strolling without his daisy
or sunflower
or dandelion
One day he was walking alone
Not believing in dreams
And he saw these vibrant
Towering
Draping flowers for sale
In a window sill

“Jade Vine: Endangered”

And then he paid for me

Now where oh where do you store jade vine
For safe keeping

He thought back to those dreams
That paraded these vines around 
The entire width of his home

But what about his daisy
or sunflower
or dandelion
What about his single flower
Whose gold would have no choice but to be
Outshone by bundles of jade

So he threw his rare vine into the closet
To live amongst the skeletons
Close enough to his bedside
So that he could smell me in his sleep

He said that now 
He believed in dreams 

He spent so much time staring into that closet
Watering 
Smelling
Loving
Drinking its nectar
Growing hate for that single daisy
or sunflower
or dandelion
That allowed no jade into his sight

Bare walls 
With the green of life in his closet

His closet was cold
My jade leaves began to purple from frost
So I told him to return me to the store

Tears

He now sits silently 
In the confines of his bare walls
With a single daisy
or sunflower 
or dandelion
And I am now back in my windowsill

“Jade Vine: Endangered”

I see you approach the sign outside
Head tilted
Eyes wide with disbelief
A smirk
And when you reach for me
Your fingers reek of daisy
or sunflower
or dandelion

Don’t pay for me

Ex

I checked my account and

I can no longer afford the cost

Written on your price tag

Yet part of me is willing to buy it on credit

I know

In that debt I would surely drown

See it’s the hope that’s deadly

The occasional surface phone call that

Slowly creeps backward into locked away memories

You massage my temples with growling recall

What we used to do, none have come close to

A prowess unparalleled

A prowl that always achieved his kill

To die and arise

Toying with the proverbial thin line

Every encounter has been a stroll

Across the tightrope

I always approach with caution

Initially afraid of that

Spine tingling adrenaline that

Comes with the first step

Imagining falling to my demise

I hate you

Hate the way you hurt me

I let you

Hate the way you treat her

When I was the one who held you down

I still am

Hate that I am

Always around for every phone call

I hate you

Hate that I don’t hate you at all

Trying to deaden my fall

Harden my love into a carcass

Say

Love don’t live here anymore

So stop asking me

You and I both know I can only say no so long

So I speak to you less

Cuz saying yes is all I gotta do

I will deny how I feel to the death

Don’t touch my dress

My face

My back

Go back to her

And let me go back to black

Thanks.

Writing Prompt #1

Writing prompt: "Write about your body without using bodily terms."

Result:

Deep, endless wells consume you

It is always what they see first

Or so they say

But it's probably my 

Wawa tree branches that grow wild

From my mind

Let your fingers climb through them

Kiss my molasses pit

On your descent

To my foundation

Nestle your cheek inside the valley 

Of my rolling hills

Land atop fertile grounds

That bring forth fruit

Feel free to roam these great plains

Until your eyes weigh heavy

With freedom

Feel the wind blowing from above

As my grounds expand and contract again

Breathing

Monophonically

The winds hum melodies

Dig into my grounds

Discover the dust that birthed nations

Where God planted

Life seeds

Where the sun bleeds its

Rays of beauty

See my two overgrown roots

That keep me standing

At times they get tired

Carrying the world's load

Bringing forth all life

Yea

It gets tiring

But they will never fail

With the help of your nourishment

Don't neglect my roots

They need you

Me

I stand strong and tall

And I still need you

SUNSHINE

dimmed Sunshine in my life.

electric yellow hues

cloaked in translucent off-black.

i need those rays back.

i once wrote of

horizontal stripes emblazoned upon my fingers

on my belly.

the blinds & the Sun did that.

there was a time i sang of walking into the Sun

& tasting possibility.

limitless.

kinetic.

infinity.

Sun was movement for me.

it was rebirth after repentant evenings.

it was spring summer feeling.

it was new love & old love

renewed.

it was spirit food.

i could close my eyes

& in my mind

grab a lawn chair for an up front view.

close up.

smile glistening with that summer glow.

words caressing my lips with that summer flow.

now where did my summer go?

even if my current mind was surrounded by june

my summer Sun would look more like the moon

hazy gray

or maybe powdery blue.

smiles now a direct relation of

tidal oscillation, phases, & amplitude.

nowadays it ain’t uncommon to see my

lips spread wide

teeth shining bright

while my eyes are singing the blues.

reflecting the light of dusk

in the deep rumbling hum of my womb

as my round cheeks

protrude rouge.

a drag in my shoes.

useless

circling blindfolded in search of a muse.

it used to be the stars.

in fact

one in particular

she and i had a most intimate kind of contact.

others named her Sun.

i named her Life Source.

and now all i ask for

is my life back.

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restless

Need a life change
A revolution
Reconstruction

A transformation
I need a me change
A where change
And a mind change
And a now change
I need change
Expeditiously

I wonder how the sun shines in Rome.

Need love
A me love
And a you love
A how many ways love
Stu stu studdering love
A shuddering love
Timeless
Time spent reciting this love
For all

I need more saturation
Or maybe a different hue

Or maybe the old you

I need a face change
Same freckled cheeks
But with a new glow
Rouged cheekbones
Naturally
Searching for the laugh in me
For the rest that He's promised me

I just wanna BE


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