Ex

I checked my account and

I can no longer afford the cost

Written on your price tag

Yet part of me is willing to buy it on credit

I know

In that debt I would surely drown

See it’s the hope that’s deadly

The occasional surface phone call that

Slowly creeps backward into locked away memories

You massage my temples with growling recall

What we used to do, none have come close to

A prowess unparalleled

A prowl that always achieved his kill

To die and arise

Toying with the proverbial thin line

Every encounter has been a stroll

Across the tightrope

I always approach with caution

Initially afraid of that

Spine tingling adrenaline that

Comes with the first step

Imagining falling to my demise

I hate you

Hate the way you hurt me

I let you

Hate the way you treat her

When I was the one who held you down

I still am

Hate that I am

Always around for every phone call

I hate you

Hate that I don’t hate you at all

Trying to deaden my fall

Harden my love into a carcass

Say

Love don’t live here anymore

So stop asking me

You and I both know I can only say no so long

So I speak to you less

Cuz saying yes is all I gotta do

I will deny how I feel to the death

Don’t touch my dress

My face

My back

Go back to her

And let me go back to black

Thanks.